The Review

I wonder why i would come back all in a sudden. I feel awkward, really i just feel that i have something to talk about. Year 2010 is going to an end. I have lots of thing to say but dunno how to spit it all out. I'm currently working in a comic shop in Damai as my close friends around me knows. As the time ticking.... Tik Tok Tik Tok.... i feel kinda bad, i did lots of stuff in this year i really hope lots of thing wouldn't have happened. But what to do? Its done. Ok end of the sad part. All i'm having now is really enough i hope everyone will understand and value every precious things or events happened around everyone. I'm obsessed to One Piece this few weeks. After working in a Comic Shop its not bad at all. Yes i cant learn a lot  of thing from there but at least i made some more friends. I get to have more chance to read some comics i missed out in anime or somewhere else.  Well New Year Eve is coming soon. I'm wondering where to go. I think i would go for some shots with my friend in Work Place. I'll be back more to look around and update you guys. Anyway, Wish You all Have a Blessed New Year 2011. ;)

The 7 deadly sins (introduction)

I have did a bit research about this topic and found out that these sins are define as this refer to wikipedia:
"The Seven Deadly Sins, also known as the Capital Vices or Cardinal Sins, is a classification of the most objectionable vices, that has been used since early Christian times to educate and instruct followers concerning (immoral) fallen humanity's tendency to sin The final version of the list consists of  Wrath, Greed, Sloth, Pride, Lust, Envy, and Gluttony.

And the i found the simple definition for all the 7 sins, as its more easier to understand.

-Pride is excessive belief in one's own abilities, that interferes with the individual's recognition of the grace of God. It has been called the sin from which all others arise. Pride is also known as Vanity.

-Envy is the desire for others' traits, status, abilities, or situation.

-Gluttony is an inordinate desire to consume more than that which one requires.

-Lust is an inordinate craving for the pleasures of the body.

-Anger is manifested in the individual who spurns love and opts instead for fury. It is also known as Wrath.

-Greed is the desire for material wealth or gain, ignoring the realm of the spiritual. It is also called Avarice or Covetousness.

-Sloth is the avoidance of physical or spiritual work.

I've explain all of the sins almost what does it means i think you guys got the picture what is it about right.

The Sin

After all these i feel kinda tired, after done all these things. I'm also not sure about what have i done but i feel kinda Guilty about it. Things you did wrong which is forbidden for a religion is called Sin."Sin, in religion , is the concept of acts that violate a known moral rule." This is the definition from Wikipedia. I found this interesting topic from FB it was a quiz from Quizazz, the tittle "Which 7 deadly sin are you?"..... When i saw this, i was like total panic and exciting in the same time, i was wandering what will be my deadliest sin?

 

Then, i decide to google it the 7 deadly sin before i do the quiz. Among the 7 of them they are:

Envy

Vanity

Sloth
Lust

Wrath

Avarice
& Gluttony.

7 of them represents different kinds of sins we usually did that we might not realize. Well i took the quiz and my results came out that my sin is

Wrath

"Wrath - Inappropriate feelings of hatred and anger. (...)Impatience with the law, or seeking revenge outside of justice, such as with unnecessary vigilantism. Wishing to do evil or harm to others."

symbolism:
- the colours red, orange, and black for fire -
- destruction -
- Lightning -
The hairstyle - another reference to fire
The make-up - a reference to battle marks -
- Sharp feathers -
- The whip she is holidng - a symbol of power -
- The shattered earth and storm - the influence Wrath has on the world -

Brief description
Wrath is uncontrolable feelings of anger and fury. Its like there ticking timebombs just waiting to go off. once your one the bad side of wrath you stay there so its best to try and keep them happy. But even if they are wrath they dont get mad at pointless things but when they are mad i have some very helpful advice....run like hell

My Opinion: Well what can i say? I must admit it ,its kinda ermm.. Not kinda its really accurate. So i hope you guys would go and take this quiz for maybe self understanding, it may not accurate for you but its for me. No offense.


Well i'm kinda interested in this now, i'll post more bout this in the next few post so come back. Kinda tired now off to sleep now see ya guys.  

Mutated Major (MM)

Well as i said i have sweep away all my emo-ness as i promised myself last week. I'm feeling a bit strange and hard for myself cause its really really hard for me to have a sudden change like that, but since its a good thing why hesitate?

After last friday it was kinda free i try to relax myself before another tough period's coming it will be tough 4 the coming month. As AS exam is coming REAL soon i have to get myself well prepared and ace every single of them with everything i got. I don't know why that i start to Love Studying. OMG its so NOT me. Usually you can see me barely touch books(i mean school's books). But now i enjoy studying textbook than reading notes. This sound so Wrong man. I'm kinda worry about myself. What's happening to me. Well i'm turning Optimist as i see, but i'm still not as good as everyone think i am.

I did a lots of bad things out there those are said to be "sin" that's the best term to describe that. I don't care much about that anymore cause i had lots of bad memory recently i don't wanna look back cause it makes me emo whenever i do that. Trying new things and changing yourself, Its Not That Easy. I feel like i'm mutating.

Two free days coming got to start studying again. Everyone in my campus seems to be kinda frustrated, well can't help much about that. I went to Aqilah's Raya open house yesterday by following Aikawa's car. I miss her a lot honestly cause every time she came back i barely got chance to see her or talk to her and its a good chance yesterday. I talked to her but she's busy cause its her house's open to her relatives and friends she have to take care of everyone of them so we didn't got the chance to talk a lot BUT i'm happy for that already cause at least i can see her and talk to her face to face. And she had a really bad sense of direction. Its funny when i'm talking to her in the phone asking how to find her house. Aikawa knows too.

I'm used to addicted to emo song this time the song i'm addicted to are a few of them:
1.Love the way you lie by Eminem feat. Rihanna
2.Yesterday by Toni Braxton feat Trey Songz

I'm using them not for emo purpose but for testing my endurance to emo songs. They're nice go listen. See ya soon.

Last pain for this time.

Well, today i made a promise to myself; today's the last day for the old emoish me. From tomorrow onwards i'm not gonna go emo simply as usual face every problem with a great smile on the face and i know currently too much things happened around me. Maybe i would accidentally hurt someone else around me or even close friends or even people starts hating me. I sincerely apologized to all of you. The pass few weeks i'm not in  real good mood for everything, so sometimes when u talk to me or walked pass me i didn't say hi to you or said something rude. Really Sorry.

I just can say that i'm always cannot win this thing until today. Misunderstanding. It always likes to come hunt for me but i always let it won in everything incur with it. I always think handle it with my explanation, but i don't know who's the people invent the phrase in Chinese "Explaining equals to Hiding". Sorry to say that i'm fucking mad at this person. Whenever things came up, the only ways is to explain, the people might say i'm hiding that is unacceptable already but the worst is not that its they don't even wanna listen and think they are always right. Fine, speechless i have already said we all have faults but u still thinks that i'm all wrong and even back-stab people at the back. Don't think i don't know anything its from you friends too u like to back-stab ppl. Its good for you too cause u don't need to see my dog face and hear me bark again. That's the end of it between both of us, maybe someday something happened might get us back but that's another story another chapter but not today. I won't pass this out to anyone anymore UNLESS your really special case.

I don't wanna scold anyone anymore its 12am of the next day now. Well what can i say i have to change. Well really miss peoples around. I've been a Lone Ranger after the fight its not that i don't have lots of friends. Its just i wanna avoid too much people cause i might accidentally hurt you. But 4rm now on i don't anyway those who are taking exam  A Real Good Luck for you and happy Moon Cake Festival to you all......

Low Tide

Well, dunno y i suddenly got a feeling that i wanna post something up here 2day. Its been a long long time i posted my last post. Well, i'm kinda upset here today. Because lots of things happened 2 me these days. Few things i wanna talk about.

1. I always ask ppl dun emo, when i saw them posting some emo post on fb, bt still i always end up emo myself bout my own staffs happened 2 me.
2. Tomorrow's my AS level Trial exam bt i'm still typing shit here.
3. I'm sick of him already. Everyone gt limits, once time had passed, its hard 2 refine or repair it again. I've  taken the 1st 2 tear of my faces and apologize 2 him twice. Both of us also gt fault, bt to me i don't think he ever admitted it. He think he's not wrong completely. Well? What can i say? Since u dun accept my apologize that will be fine for me too.

Kinda miss these ppl
-Aqilah,Corine,Sam&Sarah.
"well miss u guys really bad..... Miss talking 2 u guys."
-Jovi
"I'm really not in a good mood, wish i'm in KL or Ipoh now. I wanna go clubbing."
-09'S2Xin
"now i realize the old days with u are way more fun compare 2 now."
-Reila,Jordan,Chew,Fiona
"Haizz, miss gossiping with u guys"
-Rachel,Cavanaugh,Jeremy,Derek
"the primary school days, sprinkling days are over... Miss it so Bad."
Evelyn Tsen
-"sister, gt so much 2 talk with you."
Others(I dun mention is not bcoz i've forgot bout u its juz too many)
-" I really miss alotz of ppl."

Don't know why i feel like got tons to talk about but suddenly all stuck. Have to wait till next time, gtg 4 my nap. Hopefully my emo's all gone after the nap.

Part of the missing pieces

It feels like i'm not really serious for my results last term i fells like nothing just study easily and stay cool but what i got after the exam was not as satisfying as i predicted. I dun feel like i've dun my best bt what to do? I'm doing in this way because i feel like i'm missing something else in my life bt i'm not sure what is it... I really dunno what i actually want. I asked a lot of ppl about it, and i end up with this conclusion. "Major You Need To Set A Goal For Yourself!!!!". But after thinking of that i knew what i want was like bt i dunno what is it. Ooops, Its like so deep. It means for example, Imagine i want to buy ice cream for myself bt when i walk in to the supermarket, i went to see a lots of stuff like candy, marshmallow and etc. bt i found out that i want something sweet bt what i went to see is nt the one i want. U gt it? Like its still too deep for others to understand bt nvm, as long as i know what i mean its okay. I'm having this fear of postman coming over the house i have no idea when is the transcript will be sent to my parents i know it won looks good so i have to prepared myself mentally that i'll get shot when the moment i get in to the house after school.

I tidy up my room last night throwing things that i dun need away, arranging my stuffs and blah blah blah, i found lots of things like my old school photo with my secondary classmates make me remember the old days i Sttss, i found old notes from secondary school, A, B, C, and i found a present box it was nt a box given to me by ppl bt the present box i'm gonna give someone bt she did not accept and i end up giving part of it to her only, it makes me think of the time when i still love her. I have no feel at all to her anymore today bt i feels sad when i remember what she did to me. I'm not in a very good mood since morning i really dun understand what's the big deal of hitting a mosquito in the car and it drop on the floor of the car. Why is he so pissed off because of this is it a big deal? I 'm so lazy to care about it.....

Its under-bo(edrea)'s birthday today anyway wish u Happy Birthday!!! XD I hope nothing else would spoil my mood again. I wanna perform in IS Night bt i did not, because my band dun fells like they wann ago arghh... That's all~ God Bless Pls...

It sounds damn Wrong.....

I failed my accounts, what the hell man.... I'm not stupid bt the one who teach, i dun understand what she say all the time she was like so discouraging all the time and expect ppl to get good marks during test or exam always ask ppl to drop ur stupid subject..... Seriously if i still can drop i will definitely drop it for SURE bt i have no choice coz i only left 3 subjects i dropped math two months ago....  I prefer my secondary bookeeeping to teach me accounts.... Well lots of thing came back out suddenly i fell like super stressed, i hav to manage my club the performance, newsletter materials like sudden want us to pass it up so fast and really no time for it time is running out so fast i'm still doin nothing here bt typing my post , what else? Movie shooting...., i enjoy doing it bt it all come out all in a sudden and come 2gather.... I want to go for a holiday the one week holiday was like nthg, coz when we start to feel like its holiday the school reopen..... I wanna go somewhere else..... Now i realize everyone around me is struggling out of problems like i do... Lets Do It......  :(

I'm not giving Up!!!! Bye emo....

Well how sad it was like so emo few days ago.... I don't wanna do that but i really can't stand it but well I found the most effecting way in healing back from serious love sickness.... KEEPING BUSY WILL MAKE YOU FORGOT ABOUT IT..... I'm goin to keep myself really busy these few day k? Don't get mad if i don't talk to you these few days k? GO GO GO!!! BUSY BUSY BUSY!!!!

Monday Morning rain is falling.'''":":";"";":

Really forgot how long it had been not been raining even a drop of rain on  the ground of land below the wind. It was like months not been raining , it's just that the ground still haven't cracked yet. Yes, it finally rained this morning, a real heavy rain it is. Someone says that its better not to know everything sometime, cause you'll regret after knowing about it. Yes,its true i really hope that i didn't asked something or anything about her. I prefer forgot about it or whatever that i can never know about this. Although it's not any big secret or what but for me it   should be a secret better not to know about. I hope she could see this . It hurts, when you talk with someone else....not with me.... It hurts more when someone else makes you smile & i can't....& It hurts most, when you say I Love You to someone else... Not to me.... You rejected me that day, cause you tell me, we don't know each other much yet, we just know each other for few weeks only and he is also new too... You know him not more than few weeks too... If you knew you won't, don't give me any space for imagination and even a chance at the beginning... I rather you rejected at the first time not a few weeks after and you rejected me and you're with him already at his moment. I don't even believe it when someone is telling me that. I thought it was just rumors. But today, its true . It's really hard for me to accept this do suddenly. You may now saying that i'm too slow, so what? I'm slow but at least i don't pull things off around like a truck none stop going and pulling someone at the back with rope which didn't even realize the person is tired and still pulling, even he can't walk till he is dead and still pulling him around and don't even care the corpse is still bleeding and losing parts, and you end up cutting the rope blindly and go leaving it in the middle of your journey. I don't wanna hate you, i tried my very best not to act it obviously in front of you but i can't go through myself. I try not to act emo cause it's for emo-bo but i really can't stand it. I hope someone can cast a spell on my glasses and contact lens so that i won't be seeing you in my world. I don't wanna see you cause it increase s the pain in my heart. It's my fault to know about it, i really shouldn't have known about it. Sorry Princess-bo i really can't control myself for being emo. I know emo is not for minor-bo but i'll try my best to go through this. But sometimes God just wanna test you, He don't just give you one problems at a time but he double it up or even triple it... What do you want? I'm not felling like coming to I.S. in the beginning but you tell me to go for it and you want it. So, i came to I.S. to Study. It has been a tough time for me to get use to it in an all new environment. I'm now even enjoying life and studying in I.S., and now you're telling me that i'm easily satisfy after continue studying A-Level after getting my result. Sometime you just don't understand that and even know what am i thinking . I'm NOT EASILY SATISFY for studying A-Level. All i want is just complete the whole course since i came to so far. I'm really tired of struggling between these problems. I have my own shit to manage and take care of. Stop messing up my life. I wish i could kick these stuff out of my life. It's raining now inside of my heart i don't know when will it stop. I'm sick of sad and love song now cause they don't work on me anymore.

Miss the One Step 2 Victory

Yesterday was the last day of our Sch's sports day. I was in orange house's volleyball team. We had already had a match with Red hs. on friday, we lose that match and yesterday against Pink hs. and Blue hs. Our 1st match against Pink house our house won 2 games streak. The 2nd match against Blue hs. we lose the 1st set, bt we catch up in the 2nd set, then we get to third set and we almost got it bt we lose at the end. That's kind of sad. But we knew we did our very best on this. Ok now the sport's day is finished, tough days are coming soon hahaha i gotta braced up. I'll be busying bout Music Club, Student Welfare and AnP.Okay, So long~ willing 2 share more with u guys soon. Before i end this post hope 2 wish Princess-bo "HAPPY BIRTHDAY"!!!!!

Well time to let go of hands.

Well i'm really not in a very happy mood cause the girl rejected me since monday. I try my very best to overcome myself for being depressed and its really hard i can see, but i still have a group of friends supporting me comfort me at the back. Really thanks to them. what i raely need now is a rest but i don't think i can have it this soon but if i get something good tomorrow it will be another story. I found out that there's a song named 'goodbye' by Miley Cyrus(Hannah Montana) really help me a lot in cry out everything in my heart that's a realy nice song and another song 'The Man Who Can't Be Moved' realy sing out everything inside of me i need to go fix my playlist to this two song hahaha.... {...I remember when we kiss, i still feel it on my lips, the time when u dance with me when no music playin......}

Is it a good time?

Well its me again. 08.02AM here in the Comp lab. Not in a real good mood. I really dun understand why is that going study in Singapore is so important, cause i really never think of studying in Singapore before maybe its good to study in Singapore in the future, but i hope i could go somewhere further than Sing.Because of this my dad keep angry at me about this. And he scolded me because of silly small matter. Taking bout the girl i really dunno what to say about her... Should i go ask her once to clarify everything clear or what? If i dun do that now i'm afraid i won't have time to talk about it cause i'll be really busy. My time is going tighter and tighter I hope that i will came out with a real good idea so solve this sort of problem. Well talking bout club its going great i hope everything won't goes wrong. Bleeding inside but Smiling outside.

Long time no post....

It's been a long time since my last post till now... maybe there's noone reading or checking out ppls blog.... Haha kind of silly. What's the point of posting here? I found out that i have nothing to do during my math lesson... Cause I wanna drop it..... To let you guys know i'm still fine these days not dead yet haha.... N i have been elected as the President of Music Club. I feel that its gonna to be tough in the coming days. I hope that with the commitees they can realy help out and work together to improve the club more.... What else? Ya i'm currently studying in Institut Sinaran(IS), and I'm in A-level commerce class. I met a lot of new friends, pals, buddies and my crush. Talking bout a girl i met in IS this girl is cute, friendly, crazy and funny..... I realy likes this girl but sometimes she realy makes me go insane. Is she the girl that i've been waiting these days?