Last pain for this time.

Well, today i made a promise to myself; today's the last day for the old emoish me. From tomorrow onwards i'm not gonna go emo simply as usual face every problem with a great smile on the face and i know currently too much things happened around me. Maybe i would accidentally hurt someone else around me or even close friends or even people starts hating me. I sincerely apologized to all of you. The pass few weeks i'm not in  real good mood for everything, so sometimes when u talk to me or walked pass me i didn't say hi to you or said something rude. Really Sorry.

I just can say that i'm always cannot win this thing until today. Misunderstanding. It always likes to come hunt for me but i always let it won in everything incur with it. I always think handle it with my explanation, but i don't know who's the people invent the phrase in Chinese "Explaining equals to Hiding". Sorry to say that i'm fucking mad at this person. Whenever things came up, the only ways is to explain, the people might say i'm hiding that is unacceptable already but the worst is not that its they don't even wanna listen and think they are always right. Fine, speechless i have already said we all have faults but u still thinks that i'm all wrong and even back-stab people at the back. Don't think i don't know anything its from you friends too u like to back-stab ppl. Its good for you too cause u don't need to see my dog face and hear me bark again. That's the end of it between both of us, maybe someday something happened might get us back but that's another story another chapter but not today. I won't pass this out to anyone anymore UNLESS your really special case.

I don't wanna scold anyone anymore its 12am of the next day now. Well what can i say i have to change. Well really miss peoples around. I've been a Lone Ranger after the fight its not that i don't have lots of friends. Its just i wanna avoid too much people cause i might accidentally hurt you. But 4rm now on i don't anyway those who are taking exam  A Real Good Luck for you and happy Moon Cake Festival to you all......

"You're Not Sorry"-My new added song.

Seriously, I had been addicted to this song (you're listening it now) since last two months. Its Lyric has a which is...

So You Don't Have to call anymore

i won't Pick Up the Phone this is the last Straw

There's nothing left to beg for

and you can tell me that ur sorry coz i don't believe you baby like i did

before

YOU'RE NOT SORRY no no o.........

This Song is 4rm me to someone who's 4rm

ANGLELAND not angelland

and

SomeOne who wanna fight with me two days ago(his one of my closest family member).

I realy dunno wat did i did wrong to you guys. You both are just SUCKS.....

You Know I'm Talking About YOU Both.

Wreaths 4 my Beloved Grandpa.

Hey, I'm Innocent Dun Put All Ur anger On me..... Help!!!
(smile)

These are the wreaths given to my Grandpa, and they are realy beautiful. Thanks to all of those who sent anyone of them. You're realy kind of that..... And now I realize that You seriously have to value every single seconds that you have with everyone around you, cause you won't know when will they leave you..... And Grandpa Although You Have Leave Us already forever..... But U'll always be living in my heart..... I'll start my New Life Start 4rm 2 morrow...

That'll always be in my heart.... Forever.....

Its Hard to say.

Sorry guys its realy busy 4 the last few weeks tests, singing competitions, homeworks, staffs, n much more things.... N something sad happened two days ago.....
Yes, its same as wat mty title says "its hard to say.....my grandpa passed away.....". I noe its supposed to be a very sad and serious thing. BUT, dunno y its maybe its the 1st time my close family passed away. And its realy hard 4 me to accept it until today. It was like I was dreaming you know? I dunno wats the problem is..... Its been this long already i have been living with him. But I realy never thought that he will leave us this soon.....
All this happened two days ago, I was like usual go to school, and happy being there having lessons n recess chit-chating and somemore on, and the story starts here. I was just coming back home 4rm school as Usual and i get down 4rm my school bus n rush into my home because i was still hungry. And the next moment i saw my mum sitting direct to the front door and she start to tell me that my grandpa was in the hospital now n his seriously injured he fell down on his own this morning and he hurt his head i mean brain seriously its bleeding in the brain..... And they found out that when my mum went to sent him to FohSang as usual because he cant drive a car anymore since last year. N he was sent to the hospital by ambulance. N after the checking and observation by the Doctor. He told us that he's juz waiting for the time only(no cure anymore and waiting him to die). I know you guys will ask can operation marr..... BUT i'm sorry to say that he got high blood pressure and he's eating a medicine Woffren i think the medicine's name... He cant do operation. So we have no choice but wait till the TIME. And i was so not believing it and i told my mum "I believe in MIRACLEz..." he will be fine. But althouht i was thinking like that my heart has already know how will the situation goes. N i quickly changed another t shirt and a jeans quickly jump up to the car.
After sending the maid to my grandpa's home. We finally reach SMC. And i went into the lift quickly and went to his ward . When i 1st see him in the room it was bout 3pm something Wat i see was he's so suffering he can't breathe very smoothly and his in a fainting stats not awake i asked y cant him wake up my aunt told me his bleeding in his brain on the nuero system he cant control himself anymore and he won't be awake anymore. And after listening wat she said i still believe there's miracle in this world he will wake up and about 4:45 my mum decide to take us home for a bath n cook us dinner to eat and go back to see him AGAIN. And we went home and i went into the bathroom and take my shower and who knows in the middle of my shower my mum asked me to come out immediatelly and tell me Grandpa's heartbeat is going way down..... He cant stand anymuch longer so we fly out of wat we were doin and changed back a shirt and quickly fly into the car..... B4 we went into the car my dad called us my grandpa is dieing lolz... But we have no time to waste but fly our car there and went to his ward quickly and when i enter my granpa's ward i heard Crying and sniffing sound already. when i saw him he's no longer moving and breathing anymore. HE IS DEAD. My 1st reaction is my tears are coming out 4rm my eyes like the water pipe..... And in all a sudden wat i see is not him lying there on the bed not moving anymore but its like a video tape rewinding in my sight all my memories with him all rewinding and came out all in a sudden..... And i was goin to faint and i can't stand it anymore my eldest sister my eldest uncle's daugter was crying, my aunt was crying, my mum was crying, most of the people were crying. I ran out of it and its about 6:22pm i called Fiona with my handphone its so uncontrolable and all my uncles and aunties came and my grandpa was sent to FLS by that night.
Until now i still cant accept wat realy happened its realy like a dream maybe its beacuse it happened all in a sudden. I hope i can learn to truely accept it i realy cant write anymore there's still a hard way for me to do this..... But i learn to value every single ppl around you, because you won't know when will they leave you. Life is like a train ur in one of the cargo you'll see ppl coming up to the train and as well as leaving the train and gone forever...........................................