Part of the missing pieces

It feels like i'm not really serious for my results last term i fells like nothing just study easily and stay cool but what i got after the exam was not as satisfying as i predicted. I dun feel like i've dun my best bt what to do? I'm doing in this way because i feel like i'm missing something else in my life bt i'm not sure what is it... I really dunno what i actually want. I asked a lot of ppl about it, and i end up with this conclusion. "Major You Need To Set A Goal For Yourself!!!!". But after thinking of that i knew what i want was like bt i dunno what is it. Ooops, Its like so deep. It means for example, Imagine i want to buy ice cream for myself bt when i walk in to the supermarket, i went to see a lots of stuff like candy, marshmallow and etc. bt i found out that i want something sweet bt what i went to see is nt the one i want. U gt it? Like its still too deep for others to understand bt nvm, as long as i know what i mean its okay. I'm having this fear of postman coming over the house i have no idea when is the transcript will be sent to my parents i know it won looks good so i have to prepared myself mentally that i'll get shot when the moment i get in to the house after school.

I tidy up my room last night throwing things that i dun need away, arranging my stuffs and blah blah blah, i found lots of things like my old school photo with my secondary classmates make me remember the old days i Sttss, i found old notes from secondary school, A, B, C, and i found a present box it was nt a box given to me by ppl bt the present box i'm gonna give someone bt she did not accept and i end up giving part of it to her only, it makes me think of the time when i still love her. I have no feel at all to her anymore today bt i feels sad when i remember what she did to me. I'm not in a very good mood since morning i really dun understand what's the big deal of hitting a mosquito in the car and it drop on the floor of the car. Why is he so pissed off because of this is it a big deal? I 'm so lazy to care about it.....

Its under-bo(edrea)'s birthday today anyway wish u Happy Birthday!!! XD I hope nothing else would spoil my mood again. I wanna perform in IS Night bt i did not, because my band dun fells like they wann ago arghh... That's all~ God Bless Pls...

It sounds damn Wrong.....

I failed my accounts, what the hell man.... I'm not stupid bt the one who teach, i dun understand what she say all the time she was like so discouraging all the time and expect ppl to get good marks during test or exam always ask ppl to drop ur stupid subject..... Seriously if i still can drop i will definitely drop it for SURE bt i have no choice coz i only left 3 subjects i dropped math two months ago....  I prefer my secondary bookeeeping to teach me accounts.... Well lots of thing came back out suddenly i fell like super stressed, i hav to manage my club the performance, newsletter materials like sudden want us to pass it up so fast and really no time for it time is running out so fast i'm still doin nothing here bt typing my post , what else? Movie shooting...., i enjoy doing it bt it all come out all in a sudden and come 2gather.... I want to go for a holiday the one week holiday was like nthg, coz when we start to feel like its holiday the school reopen..... I wanna go somewhere else..... Now i realize everyone around me is struggling out of problems like i do... Lets Do It......  :(