I'm not giving Up!!!! Bye emo....

Well how sad it was like so emo few days ago.... I don't wanna do that but i really can't stand it but well I found the most effecting way in healing back from serious love sickness.... KEEPING BUSY WILL MAKE YOU FORGOT ABOUT IT..... I'm goin to keep myself really busy these few day k? Don't get mad if i don't talk to you these few days k? GO GO GO!!! BUSY BUSY BUSY!!!!

Monday Morning rain is falling.'''":":";"";":

Really forgot how long it had been not been raining even a drop of rain on  the ground of land below the wind. It was like months not been raining , it's just that the ground still haven't cracked yet. Yes, it finally rained this morning, a real heavy rain it is. Someone says that its better not to know everything sometime, cause you'll regret after knowing about it. Yes,its true i really hope that i didn't asked something or anything about her. I prefer forgot about it or whatever that i can never know about this. Although it's not any big secret or what but for me it   should be a secret better not to know about. I hope she could see this . It hurts, when you talk with someone else....not with me.... It hurts more when someone else makes you smile & i can't....& It hurts most, when you say I Love You to someone else... Not to me.... You rejected me that day, cause you tell me, we don't know each other much yet, we just know each other for few weeks only and he is also new too... You know him not more than few weeks too... If you knew you won't, don't give me any space for imagination and even a chance at the beginning... I rather you rejected at the first time not a few weeks after and you rejected me and you're with him already at his moment. I don't even believe it when someone is telling me that. I thought it was just rumors. But today, its true . It's really hard for me to accept this do suddenly. You may now saying that i'm too slow, so what? I'm slow but at least i don't pull things off around like a truck none stop going and pulling someone at the back with rope which didn't even realize the person is tired and still pulling, even he can't walk till he is dead and still pulling him around and don't even care the corpse is still bleeding and losing parts, and you end up cutting the rope blindly and go leaving it in the middle of your journey. I don't wanna hate you, i tried my very best not to act it obviously in front of you but i can't go through myself. I try not to act emo cause it's for emo-bo but i really can't stand it. I hope someone can cast a spell on my glasses and contact lens so that i won't be seeing you in my world. I don't wanna see you cause it increase s the pain in my heart. It's my fault to know about it, i really shouldn't have known about it. Sorry Princess-bo i really can't control myself for being emo. I know emo is not for minor-bo but i'll try my best to go through this. But sometimes God just wanna test you, He don't just give you one problems at a time but he double it up or even triple it... What do you want? I'm not felling like coming to I.S. in the beginning but you tell me to go for it and you want it. So, i came to I.S. to Study. It has been a tough time for me to get use to it in an all new environment. I'm now even enjoying life and studying in I.S., and now you're telling me that i'm easily satisfy after continue studying A-Level after getting my result. Sometime you just don't understand that and even know what am i thinking . I'm NOT EASILY SATISFY for studying A-Level. All i want is just complete the whole course since i came to so far. I'm really tired of struggling between these problems. I have my own shit to manage and take care of. Stop messing up my life. I wish i could kick these stuff out of my life. It's raining now inside of my heart i don't know when will it stop. I'm sick of sad and love song now cause they don't work on me anymore.

Miss the One Step 2 Victory

Yesterday was the last day of our Sch's sports day. I was in orange house's volleyball team. We had already had a match with Red hs. on friday, we lose that match and yesterday against Pink hs. and Blue hs. Our 1st match against Pink house our house won 2 games streak. The 2nd match against Blue hs. we lose the 1st set, bt we catch up in the 2nd set, then we get to third set and we almost got it bt we lose at the end. That's kind of sad. But we knew we did our very best on this. Ok now the sport's day is finished, tough days are coming soon hahaha i gotta braced up. I'll be busying bout Music Club, Student Welfare and AnP.Okay, So long~ willing 2 share more with u guys soon. Before i end this post hope 2 wish Princess-bo "HAPPY BIRTHDAY"!!!!!

Well time to let go of hands.

Well i'm really not in a very happy mood cause the girl rejected me since monday. I try my very best to overcome myself for being depressed and its really hard i can see, but i still have a group of friends supporting me comfort me at the back. Really thanks to them. what i raely need now is a rest but i don't think i can have it this soon but if i get something good tomorrow it will be another story. I found out that there's a song named 'goodbye' by Miley Cyrus(Hannah Montana) really help me a lot in cry out everything in my heart that's a realy nice song and another song 'The Man Who Can't Be Moved' realy sing out everything inside of me i need to go fix my playlist to this two song hahaha.... {...I remember when we kiss, i still feel it on my lips, the time when u dance with me when no music playin......}

Is it a good time?

Well its me again. 08.02AM here in the Comp lab. Not in a real good mood. I really dun understand why is that going study in Singapore is so important, cause i really never think of studying in Singapore before maybe its good to study in Singapore in the future, but i hope i could go somewhere further than Sing.Because of this my dad keep angry at me about this. And he scolded me because of silly small matter. Taking bout the girl i really dunno what to say about her... Should i go ask her once to clarify everything clear or what? If i dun do that now i'm afraid i won't have time to talk about it cause i'll be really busy. My time is going tighter and tighter I hope that i will came out with a real good idea so solve this sort of problem. Well talking bout club its going great i hope everything won't goes wrong. Bleeding inside but Smiling outside.

Long time no post....

It's been a long time since my last post till now... maybe there's noone reading or checking out ppls blog.... Haha kind of silly. What's the point of posting here? I found out that i have nothing to do during my math lesson... Cause I wanna drop it..... To let you guys know i'm still fine these days not dead yet haha.... N i have been elected as the President of Music Club. I feel that its gonna to be tough in the coming days. I hope that with the commitees they can realy help out and work together to improve the club more.... What else? Ya i'm currently studying in Institut Sinaran(IS), and I'm in A-level commerce class. I met a lot of new friends, pals, buddies and my crush. Talking bout a girl i met in IS this girl is cute, friendly, crazy and funny..... I realy likes this girl but sometimes she realy makes me go insane. Is she the girl that i've been waiting these days?